Seeking the Positive

Everyone makes mistakes.  I believe it is the best way to learn something.  Particularly the embarrassing kind.  Those are the worst kind of mistakes to make, but the ones that stick with you for awhile.  I guess it's worth making these kind of mistakes to learn from them.  In the end it still sucks because most mistakes can be prevented. I'm saying all of this because I made an unintentional mistake that has some pretty big consequences.  Not just for me, but for other people.  Everyone keeps saying it isn't my fault.  But it is.  I wouldn't feel this way if it wasn't.

The positive side: I am growing and learning and becoming a better person because of this and hopefully bringing some others along for the journey.

I know being positive isn't really everyone's 'style'  but I don't know how to keep going without it.  I can't wallow in the bad, I have to thrive for the good in life.  I know not everyone may agree, but it's the only way to live.  Being proactive and happy.  Even on days when you may not feel so great, putting on a smile could help someone's day be better.   It's totally worth it.

I'm very fortunate to have my fair share of really great days.  And I don't say this lightly.  I have had some REALLY GREAT days recently.  Days where everything may not be perfect, but everything makes me smile. I love having the most amazing friends ever to share it with.

I do not like my birthday and I'm not sure why.  I just don't.  Well, my birthday started out being one of those REALLY GREAT days. And no one knew it was my birthday all day! Which made the day even more great!  No matter how hard I tried to make myself have a bad day, great things just kept happening. The ending of the day was really what ended up making it so great.  My sisters put on this amazing skit for a fraternity and they LOVED it.  I was so proud of my sisters who can sometimes be shy and reserved for being fearless! The boys were literally rolling on the floor laughing.  And that made my day.  Unfortunately this is also where the mistake occurred.  So I look back on it and smile, but then I stop myself.  Good things can come from mistakes.  But not good feelings.